Tuesday, May 19, 2009

the call i'll alwz rmbr

We having conferences is something really common in college. There were times like olive’s birthday when about 10-15 ppl were on the conference together! Speak of how much our gadgets have advanced from the pigeons messages to our cellfones! Last nite I had a conference on the fone, that got left me in deep thot for a long time even after I kept the fone down!

College has changed all of us in a way! I kno jay since the firsdt grade and guggs since the eigth grade and I remember my frens well of wot they were just one year back and I see them today as ppl ho have changed all in a beautiful way!
Last year this time, I had not even imagined two of my bestest frens will soon have to go so far from here! It was still predictable of jay’s decision to go to kota. But I remember I was just not able to digest the fact guggs will not be here ny longer for 3 whole years! All thru the days before she left I had not realized she’ll be leaving and all the times I told her I know u’ll do it and you’ll be abvsolutely fine there….it was only wen I cem back home after meeting her for the last time till next vacations, I realized she is not gonna be here, no more calln up n asking Vir, gugga hai? No more meetings at sp for a long time n I burst up crying! I just din want her to go! I was already missing jay and I din wann guggs to go! I was soo wishing I cud stop her!
Today as I spoke to them . I was all quite jus listening to them as both of them spoke of their hostel life and new frens! Of how they had learnt to value their family and friends wen distances came up. Both of them had becum so mature!
I silly said sumthn I wudn have usually said, as they finished, that mite have made them feel I dun understand, (i do this alwz just say crap, I dun mean. I dun intend to at the the time I just dun have to! :-S) said dat den coz I wasnot used these two extremely strong headed, very practical ppl sayn wot they did! But I realized later, in life maybe u grow strong in true sense wen u understand ur inner self, wen u connect to ur self, wen u make connections thru ur heart, wen u value your feeling in the right way. My frens had cum bak after growing so strong! =)
Living in a foreign country, whr u dun undrstand wot majority of dm spk, dy dun get u, dy dun care, getn frnz who treat u lik fmly, who frm wakn up, stay wid u, by u, 4u... I m so happy guggs found clivley, jus so hapy, 4al d emotnal suport, i m glad coza hm, she liks it dr in hk. Wen i learnt guggs nw remvs tms each day, to write 2clive n wilsn, i was yet again so proud of hr, say i m hapy 4 hr,n nt jus dat, i wantd 2hug her tite n let dat spk al i cudn xprs. Jay was one persn ho was alwz so indpndnt, stil as she said, she huggd her parents 10 tms a day, n sudnly in kota she realisd dad's not around her nylonger, aww... I love u yar 4 wot u guys spoke n hw u spoke : n i m so hapy d maturity cem in n how! I hav bn jus thnkn bout it d whol nite n since morn, n dis is d first tm, i ain't fln lik sayn sory 4 behavn wierdly, n nt as i truly fl, im jus happy, wid nu change in my frnz, i m jus luving dm mor dan ever, i knw dy'l undrstand, i dun hav to spk n it doesnt get betr =)
Missing hugs, good food, emotional support, nah maybe yes I wudn understand, coz I din go thru it, but theres just one thing I know, I value and respect their feelings. It troubled me wen I heard they were in pain during the initial time, wen I learnt they missed home badly, it made me feel really happy wen I learnt they had found friends to support them, a new family far away from here!

We generally dun give a thot to things related to our feelings, tho they affect us a lot! Being practical at all times sumwhr maybe takes us away from our feelings. But life jus show us how to value things! We as humans even after all said and done do take things simply for granted! Our parents advice. Our siblings love and affection even as we fight with them! I alwz knew my family was special, these two made me realise this fact jus all the more!

As kids, our friendships and our priorities alwz are different. As time passes, far before we understand we growup. Life makes us growup! The relations made now stay, coz they are simply meant for being there! The relations that are formed now rise from deep within your soul and literally conquer and capture a place in your heart to alwz stay there! A common forward I have received many times is ‘I may be far but I care!’ today I realised a new meaning to this line! You dun have to say things from now on, you just feel them! Close your eyes n ur loved ones are their in your heart, you can actually communicate! You no longer take efforts to have the formal sorrys and thankyous. no longer you need to say ‘v’l stay in touch’ for bonds have made been formed already! You want it, dun want it, you have it, and you know you treasure it!

Friends are ppl far more important than their casual attitude and care-free style makes them appear. Isn’t it strange, ppl we take the least care to make a relation with. Ppl with you are the most casual. Ppl u dun care talking all crap bout. Are ppl who become soo dear! The sitting together in class, walking bak home with, the ppl tiffins are shared with and so also the sugar-cane and lemon juices! Ppl you jus talk and talk to, you gossip and bitch to, you msg n call at odd times,ppl you hangout with, ppl you spend time with, you give them a part of your life that will never return empty, but all filled and decorated with the most meaningful things if you give it a thot! Each one of your friend helps you create the story of your life, the story you will narrate to your grandchildren! =)
Friends are life!
This one is specially for my lukhas…. I learnt friendship in its true sense first with you guys, rite from the BCTS days, WHEN we shared our dreams, TO today when we are working towards accomplishing them! The ‘I’ became ‘ we’ coz of u all! I learnt the additional meanings of the word friend that connect to my soul coz of you, and you yourself know how much this friendship matters to me and you. I’ll alwz remember the conference we had last nite
I simply wanna say …
I JUST SIMPLY LOVE YOU GUYS! You are the best thing that ever happened to me! I swear!
GOD BLESS ………..TAKE CARE

Friday, May 15, 2009

:-S

*sigh*
i dun knw whr 2 start 4m! Sumthngs hapnd, in d past fw months dat i m realy fln very uncmfrtbl bout. These thots kp cumn 2my mind, dy r realy distrbn me and 4 one last tm by writn dis post i wana clear it, n dn leave d past as past!

Sometms u just with al ur efforts screwup ur life. I did dat, n i mus tel u, i did it prety well, jus dat it hapnd unconsciously! I told ya i hate to go wrong... N i did it! I dun hw did i let it hapn, how cud i get so dumb? I stil rmbr teln guggs plz dun change b4 she joind ecole, she did it so well n i, stoopid, useless, idiotic i - let it hapn 2me. I so lik d persn i m, i m a diff individual, i am me! N jus how cud i change?

The more i think bout it, i realy fl so horribly pathetic! I did fl sumthn was wrong, wen evrythn around me was messing up. I e1 remembr teln a colg fren once dat i dun thnk, i m being able 2 project myself, d way i am! Had i said, man, dis is nt me... I hope a bel wud hav rang in my head to tel me... Aahh! I m changing!

Ppl around me, kpt gvn me sugestns, rather i kpt askn 4 suggestns so unecesarily! I din nd dm, it jus told me hw deep d ppl around me were! My original self had realisd al thngs said wid more dpth, long bak... Bt i was slpn toh hw cud i thnk! N wen i got advice i jus got irritatd n said 'mujhe yeh pata hai' X-Pawww... i wud get so hyper!Sumtms sum statemnts by frens wud giv temp. Relif bt i cudn stck to sumthn outa cmpulsn 4 long na... Toh shit! I had screwed up evrythng! :((

weneva i rmbr d outing at mamamia's bandra, i get goosebums it al strtd 4m dr! :(

well! I dun care wot ppl thnk bout me... D fact dat i let my self get lost. I shudn hav. realy makes me angry at myslf! Mosta u mite nt hav realisd, coz i was stil 5n. Bt i knw i realy got onto d nerves of sum of u out dr.
i m sory! I knw gugs n shwe wil nt allow me 2say dis, coz dy knw me mor dan i myslf do, n dy knw i hav sufrd sabse jyada coz of my hyperness (wndr if hyperness is a word! ^.~) bt hey ya awesum 2, thanks 4 hearng me cmplain. Gs thanks 4 sayn d 1statement u made n sory s2... Jus avehi!Nw i jus hope i'l b ble to put thngs bk in ordr! *sigh*

p.s. kya vaat lagayi thi yar, mein khudki. Lolseriously.. Just got savd! :- :-S

Thursday, May 14, 2009

EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Everyone of us have faced it! When exams come the world around you suddenly becomes all colourful…the television has new films showing, the mind feels like wandering around…the body feels tired, you feel so sleepy as if you had never slept before in life and the fights of to do or to just leave it till later become so intense that the whole confusion of mind makes you even more tired….
You feel like talking on the phone for even longer time, messaging ppl more frequently, drawing, scribbling, solving the crossword… in short you feel like doing everything else possible except studying!

Why does this happen everytime? Why the lack of the much needed inspiration?
Awww… I just don’t feel like studying. I swear yarr, I m so royally bugged!
Hmm … come exams and this does not happen impossible! Not that you have no goals in life, not that you don’t have responsibilities, but everything seems so in the favour of making you not study during the preparatory leave! haina?
*sigh* What you expect me to express my thoughts on this?? That’s it yarr! aUr kya bolu? Even I dun feel like studying! Wot else do I say? Got no solution! Soo…. U feel like dun feel like just study! Take efforts! One more effort each time! Dun think bout your colleagues, batch mates, classmates, vot ur parents expect and how u wish marks wud be gifted!
God doesnot help in increasing your marks for sure…its just you ho can help you…I guess try liking vot u r doing….all the best!Psstt…you got no other option besides….so all the best to fite ur bordom ppl!
All the best for your xams…the world may or maynot understand you pain, but I do! Take care! :D
C ya den….after my xams get over!

p.s.
I mean dun actually believe dis ok?I will definitely blog even during xams! wHo can stay serious for one whole month…well not me atleast! :D Chao!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

i m sorry

‘nobody is prefect !’ As humans all of us do commit our share of mistakes, and our mistakes infact act as our lessons. We learn from our past, and improve. That is also a reason we learn history! In short… ’It is human to err’ and it is 5n if you falter as long as you learn from your mistakes and don’t repeat them again…
I well I hate going wrong! I hate people challenging my decision…and I myself never regret on any decision I have made and I often suggest this to olive too that never regret your decision, spend time forming it but once formed stick to it against the hardest of situations! Hey btw ‘decisions’ are different than ‘opinions’…which you can for sure change! so even if there were another bettr option which I might not have choosen, complaining to my decision by me is a strict no-no!
I hate commiting mistakes! Weird huh?? But dats how I am…And the more I hate making a mistake, the more I messup with things. Besides if you are amongst the people who have tried to prove me wrong, you will know,if every you have succeeded….know this I do get annoyed but I dun show instead I apologize immediately!
I will feel too bad for going wrong that i try to do all I can, to mend my mistake not just learn from it…I feel guilty and it is not that easy for me to forgive myself for it! And if that were not enough, I believe once I have not acted in the most appropriate way, the best thing that can be done is admit your mistake, and work hard to repay! I was really cool with this however that I do keep the guts to say yes I have gone wrong even though I hate it, and do something to coverup for my mistake!

Its nice for sure if you can take responsibilities for things that you do but there is an issue here!
Quite sometimes in life, issues and events that happen are not that big. In the daily routine of yours as we move about, we have our many encounters with different people, different situations, and if there is a situation involving me in it and it goes wrong, I feel I m at a fault! Ahh… heard the hindi idiom…’Taali ek haath se nahi baajti’? sooo…if der is something rong I could have acted more sensibly huh?and I did not…omg…wot a fool am i…I must say…*I m sorry*

Sorry is a such a word, that we use really often in our lives..ek sorry bolne mein kya jaata hai wud think i?!
But now I realize ki yarr…jaata hai..bahot kuch jaata hai when you bloody say a s-o-r-r-y!
Today the saying ‘to err is human, to forgive divine’ has an addition to it….it goes ‘to err is human, to forgive divine, but to admit your mistake is a blunder!’ X-P
If you say sorry, quite you sound to people (err…unless ppl around you do make a lil bit use of the itsy-bitsy brain they have!i mean this never happens between me, guggs, jay, shwe , ush and other frens of mine) as a person who is soo wrong that he has no option left in hiding and defending his mistake that he has to actually admit it! Wot nonsense?
Say sorry and it comes all upon you, ppl dun think if you are really at a fault, and how big or small is ur mistake! my god the hazards of not thinking are growing by leaps and bounds every moment!!soo much for a seemingly harmless sorry!
Well, I learnt there is needed a right amount of balance here too! May be say sorry when you are really really wrong, and to ppl who do have the sense to understand…yarr… why can’t ppl jus respect the fact that it takes courage to admit your mistakes…seriously why cant we accept good, why are we soo cynical? Such pessismists?!

*this blog is all thanks to a brainless and super dumb friend of mine ho made me feel soo pathetic for saying sorry to her!*
*Sigh*

Saturday, May 9, 2009

I M RICH...

You become wotever you are because of her, you owe everything in your life to her. She is the reason you are alive…You can have nothing better than her..she is your angel, your god…
Words can bind the beauty of the sky, the magnificence of the monuments built, words can describe everything but love. Love to me is vot I learnt from her.Care to me is vot I learnt from her! Relations I learnt from her to manage! My belief, my hope rose from her!I would have learnt walking anyways she showed me the right direction to take my steps!I would have been feeded anyways, and given schooling, she gave me my reason to study, my inspiration!If there is anything beautiful in this world it is her love, if there is anything pure IT is her intentions, anything honest is her care…She choose me on her life, she is why I still can smile, she is why I m still alive! Morning to morning her life roams around me! Never does she act selfish! She is always there whenever I need her!
I have never seen her giving sermons, or lectures! She simply believes in working…day in day out she can handle soo much, without getting tired without getting bored! She says I m stubborn, but I have not seen any ho can stick to their commitment so well! She can forgive just so easily! Endless have been the situations, she has faced, never once I felt the fire in her has reduced! She will work for others..she helps ppl beyond my level of understanding! Her left hand does not know, what her right donates! She is just simply unbelievable! Sooo powerful!
You do all things in life as per your understanding, but something needs to support you before you develop your understanding, I had her, and hence I won, and I know I shall as long as she is with me, I shall win in life for she is my luck, my charm, I m rich because I have her…I m rich…very rich!
I earned this wealth this is how …She taught me how to speak, and I lied to her this year, not once not twice but I dun remember how many times…as I preferred going out with friends and I knew she would not allow! I lied each time I spoke on the phone inspite of she not liking it, when I said ‘bus abhi fone aaya hai!’ and spoke not thinking once of how I…
I thought she is just not understanding that I do know my responsibilities and can play them well! I thought it was fine, just fine to say the itsy-bitsy lies! I thought of me just me…I neglected my thoughts for her because she had also always done the same, neglected her and lived just for me!
I yelled at her, when I did not get things done my way. I fought with her. I did not help my sister! I gifted my time to my cellfone over my responsibilities at home! I acted soo unreasonable! There was a time, she smiled just because of me, today I made her cry!

Why do we grow? Why do we get this ability to think…why do we change…Why did I forget? How did I neglect? How could I ignore? Just how did I come so far…Just why did I listen to everyone, except my heart…Just how did I get lost in the jungle of all virtual things! All thoughts challenged! All routes of thorns! All ppl who deceive! The more I need her, the more I have made myself away from reaching her!
Money can be earned, fame, resources never too difficult to achieve! You get anything and everything in life, just that you need to be a person worth it! You become worth it when you value what you have! Nobody can become successful alone! You need help, support.We need to take efforts to grow but its never just our efforts that are working! It is simply our parents who have made us this big! Leave alone all the countless troubles they take for you, know this you cannot stay happy by if your god live with sorrow!
Simply a minute will be sufficient to bring the realization of how much, she has done, and she does for you!
She has helped me form my world!
If any1 in my lifetime has believed I m good, has appreciated my efforts, has said something nice…I swear she deserves the credit for I have learnt all the good I have from her! All my successes in life till now are coz of hers!

MUMMA, I LOVE YOU
YOU ARE THE BEST THING IN MY LIFE!
I BELIEVE THERE WILL BE NOTHING BIGGER FOR ME TO ACHIEVE, IF I CAN SOMEDAY EVEN BE 50% OF WHAT YOU ARE!
I M SORRY FOR HURTING YOU
I DONOT KNOW LIFE WITHOUT YOU!
MOM I LOVE YOU!
HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!
TC

Monday, May 4, 2009

SMS

*If god gives me 24hours b4 death, i will spend 23.55
min wid u and in d last 5mins
i will......
press ur neck and say"lets go together"
dats friendship!

*I m lamp, ur light
I m coke, u r sprite
i m sawan, u r badal,
i m normal, u r........
also normal...
kya yarr khud pe shaq krte ho??

*d relations which require effort 2b maintained r never tru n if
the relations r true
they never require any efforts 2b maintained!

*My friendship is not like rain, which pours and goes away...
but like AIR, sometimes silent but always around you

*I may be buzy in d things i do,
but i'll never 4gt sum1 like u,
so i'm keepn in touch to let u kno
my frens r mor often in my heart dan i show

*Luv is not an xam to pass or fail
luv isn a competition to win or lose
but it is a fln to show u care 4 sum1 more dan urself

*Bindaas soneka, rapchik sapne dekhne ka
BHoot se nai darne ka, bole toh aina nai dekhne ka!
aur bindaas blanket odh k. fultus soo janeka...!
bole to gudnite!

*How to make a kid xtrmly smart, intelligent, active, sweet, innocent, loveable, beautiful??
bettr ask my parents!

*2 seater helicopter crashed in a 'kabristan' in punjab
Next day's news
PUNJAB MEIN HELICOPTER GIRA...SARDARO NE 250 LASHE DHUND K NIKALI OR BHI TALASH JAARI HAI!

*10 mins of talkn to an intelliget person is equal to reading GK books for a whole day. so feel free to call me anytime

*U can impress anybody with your talent, style, smartness, intelligence, and attitude and if dats not enuf, only tell dem u r my fren!

SMS

OK I M CRAZY BOUT D SOO MANY MESSAGES WE SEND AND RECEIVE SOO HERE ARE A FEW OF THE MANY OF THE MESSAGES I RECEIVED....THEY ARE NOT ALL DAT GREAT....BUT STILL....I M POSTING IN ALL OF DEM......


*wen a black cat falls down...vot does the white one say?
.......................................................................................................
dun think like an intelligent person, it will only say MEOOWW!!!

*If you find a friend better dan me, go ahead...i wun stop you, but
wen dat person leaves, u luk behind, i'll be der 2say......................
"Marli hooshiyaari? chal aaja wapas!"

*6 FACTS on earth
1.U can't touch all ur teeth, wid ur tongue
2.After reding this all fools will try it
3.Now u smile coz u hav bcum a fool
4.Now u wish to fool ur frens
5.So u forward it to all fools
6.Fact1 is false

*A lil less ego n more understanding
a lil less argument and more concern
a lil less xpectation n more care
keeps relations sweet! hey!!!!!!

*A good plan of 2de is btr dan a gr8 plan of tomorrow,
luk bakward wid satisfaction and forward wid confidence!

*Alibaba aur chaalis chor the, ab alibaba aur 30 chor ho gaye...
poocho kyu?.....................................................................................
recession boss!
10chor ko nikal diya...cost cutting ;)

*NURSE: Mubarak ho aapk ghar beta paida hua hai!
SANTA: wah g wah kya technology hai, biwi hospital mein aur
bacha mera ghar pe paida hua hain :D

*Gile shikwe na dilse laga lena
kabhi maan jana to kabhi mana lena
kal ka kya pata hum ho na ho
jab b moka mile thoda has lena thoda hasa dena! :)

*A bird flying in d air is luck
but a paper plane flying in the air is effort
so dun wory if LUCK doesn support
EFFORTS r urs coz actions spk louder
(Wierd?? huh!?)

*Luv never dies
it remains........
for ever and ever and ever....!
only prtners changes, so keep
luving the latest!

*Luv and friendship r walking in a village
luv falls down in a well
Y??
coz....luv is blind!!! (X-P *phbtttt......*)
Friendship also jumps insaide the well...
Y??
angaat masti (:D)

*Galileo:Great mind
Einstein:Geneous mind
Newton:Extraordinary mind
BillGates:Brilliant mind
you: Never mind!!

*MISSING* teachers X-P

Teachers are the souls that deserve importance greater than god himself. A teacher removes darkness and lights a lamp that shows a direction towards the right path. We learn, we know and we gain wisdom due to them. They are the most important contributors to our being and they deserve all the honour and respect for the noble cause they have accepted and are playing, to guide and mould so many individuals!
Colleges and schools should be all the fun they are due to many reasons but the one reason our parents send us there is, dey believe, schools and colleges have 'teachers'! LOL! ;)
Colleges and schools today are synonyms to places you go to get a degree! We go there make new frens, learn to break rules, have fun, enjoy and learn the recent trends and discuss the lastest news with friends and colleagues! Attendance in lectures and practicals is forced coz the recent generation is simply careless and doesn kno vot working hard is, coz they dun kno vots rite and vot not 4 dem, for dey just wanna njoy and marks in xaminations come from heaven, gifted.....colleges have bcum equvivalent to just big names, bcoz of d good students is just such a not tru fact....Well i guess even the university knos dat if attendance weren't made compulsary, der wud hardly be ny students attending the lectures! And as every action has an equal and opposite reactions, breaking rules nowadays is not just something u do for fun, but it has bcum a necessity!
The knowledge is for sure gained in colleges, but it is mostly from things that happen wen lectures r not happening or in lectures from the mistakes some supposedly grown-up group of ppl! it is simply dat ur daily experiences with frens, the fun and freedom somewhr is 1 big reason goin to colleges has not been banned by students!We study hard during xams and the sem goes in all the things it does to students!
A student was asked 2 write a sign board 4 d traffic near the college. He wrote 'drive carefully! dont kill the students. wait for the teachers!'
A teacher is a source of inspiration, ho shows you that u must play votever role u get, with your best efforts in it, a teacher shows understanding and knows y a student behaves the way he does, a teacher knows how to inculcate in his\her students, a love for learning! Well, the reality of the times is far different! it is assumed that the students go for classes and hence a lil less effort wouldnot make a difference....it is assumed students today are just not worth teaching...it is assumed today that teaching is something,ppl rejected from market do.....it is assumed that assumptions are needed!*sigh*Teachers are lost 2de, lecturers take their places.
Wen times change, there are needed even more sources that could show the right direction to ppl....you need sum1 to guide and help you set your feet firm in the ground....u need teachers! i would wonder as a child of how could some1 even say something bad about your teacher, and yes i still agree to dat....bcoz the pl ho stand today b4 us are just not teachers! every person is different, and has a different perspective! lecturers 2de may be real good ppl in life, but life gets tuf wen you search and search harder but find no reason to sit and listen to the crap yes crap you are being forced to listen delivered by dem.
Respect is not forced or imposed, it comes from within! How do you expect ppl to respect individuals ho donot show any traits to even carry any respect.....
Sad but true this is the reality! and it is in this reality you have the affairs of the society going haywire! every individual these days feels and knows in his heart that der mite be something rong in the affairs happening around,dat things are not goin the way they should.....human mind often knows things but v need help in changing our knowledge to our wisdom!And a need for good teachers is more dan necessary now!
We have an issue but it still isn't dat bad coz u can now just possibly have a solution to the issue! dun let ur schooling interfere with your process of gaining wisdom...coz it is not the lack of knowledge that is the cause of the current scenario for we even have terrorists ho are doctors and engineers!

Well ppl say,"Wen the student is ready, the teacher appears", and dad says,"you must try to learn something from everything dat happens around u, n every individual ho is around you", and i guess dats vot we must accept and move ahead! plz give things a thot coz today the side-effects of not thinking b4 you act can be disastrous to extents you cannot even imagine dem to be!
TAKE CARE!