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*sigh*
i dun knw whr 2 start 4m! Sumthngs hapnd, in d past fw months dat i m realy fln very uncmfrtbl bout. These thots kp cumn 2my mind, dy r realy distrbn me and 4 one last tm by writn dis post i wana clear it, n dn leave d past as past!

Sometms u just with al ur efforts screwup ur life. I did dat, n i mus tel u, i did it prety well, jus dat it hapnd unconsciously! I told ya i hate to go wrong... N i did it! I dun hw did i let it hapn, how cud i get so dumb? I stil rmbr teln guggs plz dun change b4 she joind ecole, she did it so well n i, stoopid, useless, idiotic i - let it hapn 2me. I so lik d persn i m, i m a diff individual, i am me! N jus how cud i change?

The more i think bout it, i realy fl so horribly pathetic! I did fl sumthn was wrong, wen evrythn around me was messing up. I e1 remembr teln a colg fren once dat i dun thnk, i m being able 2 project myself, d way i am! Had i said, man, dis is nt me... I hope a bel wud hav rang in my head to tel me... Aahh! I m changing!

Ppl around me, kpt gvn me sugestns, rather i kpt askn 4 suggestns so unecesarily! I din nd dm, it jus told me hw deep d ppl around me were! My original self had realisd al thngs said wid more dpth, long bak... Bt i was slpn toh hw cud i thnk! N wen i got advice i jus got irritatd n said 'mujhe yeh pata hai' X-Pawww... i wud get so hyper!Sumtms sum statemnts by frens wud giv temp. Relif bt i cudn stck to sumthn outa cmpulsn 4 long na... Toh shit! I had screwed up evrythng! :((

weneva i rmbr d outing at mamamia's bandra, i get goosebums it al strtd 4m dr! :(

well! I dun care wot ppl thnk bout me... D fact dat i let my self get lost. I shudn hav. realy makes me angry at myslf! Mosta u mite nt hav realisd, coz i was stil 5n. Bt i knw i realy got onto d nerves of sum of u out dr.
i m sory! I knw gugs n shwe wil nt allow me 2say dis, coz dy knw me mor dan i myslf do, n dy knw i hav sufrd sabse jyada coz of my hyperness (wndr if hyperness is a word! ^.~) bt hey ya awesum 2, thanks 4 hearng me cmplain. Gs thanks 4 sayn d 1statement u made n sory s2... Jus avehi!Nw i jus hope i'l b ble to put thngs bk in ordr! *sigh*

p.s. kya vaat lagayi thi yar, mein khudki. Lolseriously.. Just got savd! :- :-S