be me

i happened to read a post by a friend on childhood and dis is wot i got to say....

i remember running out of my school gates full of joy, walking back home, jumping in puddles of water, doin my homework and den going to the garden wid either mom or dad or both....
i remember hoping d only swing in the small garden near my house to be empty, and i remember each time d swing went up and back again the butterflies in my stomach.....i remember walking out of d park and asking mom for a balloon..... dun jus kno wot happiness it gave carrying a rubber polymer filled wid carbon dioxide gave me! but i remember being soo happy den, wen i din kno wot happiness meant!

today i have changed soo much and each of us do....but how!
the joy of spotting an aeroplane in d sky, running like a just freed animal, dancing in the rain, crying like hell wen mom wud scold and just wishing i grow up fast was my childhood....
i din kno rite or rong but i still did no rong to others.... i wud fear buying a chocolate of 50paise wen my mother wud ask me to get some vegetables from the market without her permission! i cudn look in her eyes wen i tried lying to her, wud feel so guilty on doin even a small thing rong!
i knew i din need to worry, i knw i cud behave however i wished to, dat i was not expected to show i care and prove it to the world, i knw my priorities well den and der was no issue in living life, yes my priority to smile to listen to my mother and den the world....i din have to think about whom to trust and whom to ignore... i didnot know the word ignore! every thing brot a smile on my face
a chocolate was d ultimate gift, i din kno wot a diamond pendant was, neither did it matter, i luved to stand and stare at the birds lifting off for flight, i luved sitting on the beach not knowing politics to discuss and criticize! i luved to dream, i believed i cud do everything and anything in the world, i believed my dad was the wisest man alive on earth, i believed no body cud harm me till my mother is around, believed my sister was a gift 4m god to me!
my teacher was alwz rite and i believed her wen she said 'a' cums before 'b' and 'b' before 'c'!
i feared going to school without having my tables learnt!i feared to not obey my elders, back replying was a sin...
lifes changes soo much but y?
i still wud wish to live life my way, a life full of innocence, i dun wan to think about wot is rite and wot not, i dun wanna smile wen i feel lik crying.....and i dun wanna prove my thots, my beliefs...i dun need any1s suggestions on how do i live my life! i dun wan ppl around me to prove me rong, i dun wan any explaination and i dun wanna understand, i jus want freedom.....i dun need statements from the newspaper, i dun need 'chill's and 'sorry's i dun wanna think b4 i acted, i dun wanna growup now
i dun wanna have insecurities, how i wish i cud just believe dat ppl hum i like will not hurt me, will not ditch me.i dun wanna kno wot ego is....i dun wanna have grudges, i wanna forgive, i wanna take a break!
i wanna believe in all things being beautiful, in santa claus, in faries, i wanna believe i m a princess and dat i will hav a fairy godmother...dat wen i kno i m rite and i desparately need help, i will not have to approach ppl ho make me regret sking dat help! i wish i had sumbdy to fite for me jus me, sum1 i cud totally rely on.... i wanna share a secret and promise my fren it wud never cumout till death, i dun wanna be logically correct alwz....
i wanna fly, i wanna sing, i wanna shout, i wanna run, fly a kite, believe dat i can conquer the world, believe in my dreamz and not think if dey are rational....i dun wanna care about vot u feel bout me, i wanna kno u like me for vot i am as an eternal truth......i just wanna be me!