*HATE IT*

You start every morning with an optimistic attitude that today is going to be nice. Not all days stand true to what you want them to be obviously, but somedays leave me irritated to the extents, days where i can take no nonsense, not even, 0.0005%, days i actually can't stand some familiar faces, i call them 'the hate days'

On hate days nothing annoys me more than people critising me. I hate going wrong, remember my previous blog *i am sorry* First nobody helps on their own, always make me ask for help, with the risk that some them will just say no to help, and then when I am in the middle of some problem, worried…tell me k 'tu udasi ki dukaan hai'... Teri toh aisi ki taisi!!

I hate it when people tell me, 'rehne de, tujhe se nahi hoga'! I hate aunties telling me, how i should behave with my mother, or when they remind me of the sacrifices my mother has made for me. Why can't aunties-- extras MTOB (mind their own buisness)

i hate it when i am in the middle of telling something important and you catch a wrong prouniciation or a grammar error or a double meaning n start laufing like a fool, i swear it is very pissing off at times, my sister does it, some of my friends do it. Yes you obviously need people to correct you, but not in the middle of anything and everything!

I hate my birthdays. I seriously HATE my birthday! Y??? I can't explain everything here.. But the last thing i look forward to would be MY birthday! X-P *phbbtt...

I hate it when you don't do things on your own and find mistakes in the way i do them.
And finally I hate these hate days coz i hate the word 'hate' it hurts in every way! :(
hate days are days i behave in a very irrational way. I don't think or understand. I expect you to behave like i want, which as mentioned so many times before is bakwas!

*sigh* today was a hate day….everything seemed wrong!
But…..i love life :P : :D

*In my mind*

As I still walk through the streets around my house, my mind always (yes sir, always) is in thoughts of these places being visited by me, a few years later, and the satisfaction I am waiting to achieve by being someone worthy by then. Me not being successful, but very very successful!

I don’t value the opinions of the masses about things I do. The crowd is definitely not amongst the people I respect, but still there is a fire in me to show the crowd, how I came and conquered. That’s a dream…the struggle-- my life is for!

I am amongst the people, who needs just a roof on the head, food for survival and freedom for my thoughts and actions! Each time I am with my colours and canvas, I am super happy. But what I decide to achieve is, power in this birth… so that I can contribute, so that I can be satisfied with the amount I want to give now, but cannot till I become someone who posses a lot, someone powerful!
Someone right, someone good. I wish my being there makes a difference in the life of people around me!

*emotional attyachar!*

Ever been hurt by someone who you really cared for.. i have.....and it hurts a lot! :(

Its really bad--the feeling! ouch...

There is something i learnt lately however, that i want to share.....

We humans are responsible (response+ able). we have the response-ability to the situations around us. we cannot change others to a great extent most of the times, but we can....choose our response....and this thought helped me bring so many realisations! all people are good, like i always say, and all of them are different! each individual doesnot react to the same situation as you would. and it is so silly expecting them to do so. when we wish others to understand, we must first ourselves be understanding to their situations! happpiness is something we all want, and we and just we are responsible for our happiness! thats dat! how smart is it, to leave your happiness, which is the reason you do all the struggle in your life, at the mercy of others?

if somebody speaks well to me...i'll be happy!

if someone doesnot act like he cares....i cry.... i feel so bad.....what a big fool am i?

there is no sense in me wasting my energy and moments of my life that are never to return sulking over things not worth sulking! : its not about what others are not doing! or what others should be doing....its all about how i choose to react to the situations given to me......

i can complain today to friends....call some1 insensitive or unreasonable....but thats so wrong! I m failing to give a proper reaction, and blaming others for not being caring and hurting me is rubbish! nobody can hurt me till i permit them too on an emotional level, be it my relative, my colleague, society or even my friends!

It is important to be proactive! I and just I am responsible for my self and all that happens to me! :)

so...yey! i m happy........... this realisation means a lot to me....

hope this does sound meaningful to you too

take care

keep smiling

you r responsible! :D

~extras~

We live in a society...so we keep bumping into many people every now and then..... A few of these people form the group we like...few others form the group we don't....and these are the ones we like to give most our attention to! :) but that happens with a lil difficulty due to another group pf people called *the extras*
we have aunties and uncles and people of our age and those younger to us....all come together to form this group of people who incessently keep speaking crap on us, about us, keep suggesting, keep advising! i hate dem! X-P

i dunno why people love watching others fall in problems, they enjoy the struggle of others more than their own work, such people are the ones i find really irritating! i hate people who enjoy tamashas on the expense of any body elses misery! if a road accident or even a small tiff in two individuals on the street happens, there are hardly few who get involved and help sort the matter but many other who just stand and stare,,,,,,"arre, baap re, pata hai uss admi ne usse inni galiya di" for god sake apna kaam karo, why this behaviour?

then there are the homely extras...aunties and uncles born in the world with one mission.....disturbing you....if you do good, they have an issue in their heads, yet come praising you, and addressing you like they have been your mentors and you have paid their efforts behind the success you achieved! when i was in school and whenevr i won a contest or cem first in exams...these extras come and start pestering....."beta, mummy ko bolo party de" you want it go and ask my mom, stop wasting my time! when i slogged through the night did you stay up with me, party....my foot! paise jhaad pe ugte hai?

the next part....it would not have even been such a big issue had these extras stopped at just this... success and failure which are opposites strike everyone! in times you have done well, the extras keep praising you, and make you as examples to their kids ( i really pity kids whose parents expect them to be like sum1 else than just being them selves, such parents who do not respect the indiviuality of their kids are so not cool! it different asking sum1 to be inspired from an other person and its different to kepp making sh*tty comparisons between two different people!) and if you don't do well they disturb you even more....

each SSC or HSC student is troubled unnecessarily by neighbours, relatives and other available extras to tell them,....beta this year ka hardwork is gonna make your life...bullsh*t! i scored very good percentage in both 10th and 12th and i dun think those scores did help me evolve in life in any way! chill people take a break! if you feel like advising so much...start writing a blog....jus dun trouble the ones around you!

yes we live in a society and its really good caring for others and helping each other, but advise should be given when asked for....be compassionate, show empathy and sympathaise..........plz dun act like annoying extras!

take care
keep smiling! :)

*p.s. i hope this blog is smaller :P

an apology!

you kno i love talking....so i love writing as well...since the blogs are getting a lil longer....i wanna say i m sorry i'll try my best to keep them short and sweet...thanks for the suggestion :)

take care
keep smiling!

*give a chance*

You study and then work, to earn a livelihood; you eat, you sleep to rest. You make contacts with people, you socialize. You talk, you share! You live life. You love yourself, the people around you! You love your house, your cell phone, your car…You save, you value and you live life! You cherish your memories, the moments that passed, where you enjoyed, where you were happy. You treasure, you collect….you do everything to be happy….one day you DIE
Everything that you protected and valued stays back. Your struggle in life, your love, your hatred, your likes and dislikes, matter no more! You become past, past that is never to return…you live in just memories….
Heard of murders for money? Property disputes? Leave that… how many times have you made your conscience silent as you do something you know is wrong? But you still do it because you think it is necessary? Simple gestures of helping someone, when you got no hidden benefit. Getting a smile on someones face…may not earn you material things, but it fetches you something farr more important—‘respect’! How long will we kill and die because of the statement ‘tit for tat’? How long will we hold grudges? Till wen will we learn the importance of forgivness? When we learn life beyond survival!*sigh* Take a break yarr! you got a voice inside you, sometimes listen to it. It is not stupid to listen to ur heart! The most beautiful things in life are linked to ur heart! I got a fren ho says mera dil toh sirf blood pump karta hai on this! J theres more to the heart dan pumping blood for sure…..or feeling and emotions wudn b der K
There is no harm in living a lavish life! Working hard and spending like you want then, your money, something that you have earned! Nothing wrong in being a bit selfish till ur selfishness doesnot harm any1 or til ur selfishness doesnot make you forget the quality of helping others! Nothing wrong in saving infact it is wise to save for your future…but while you do all this it is a sin if you use any1 and then throw them away from your life! Never say ‘mein aapko jaanta hu?’ to a person who has supported you in your times of need and for the right reason ofcourse! It’s a sin to cheat someone, who has trusted you….its a sin to backstab….common yarr.. its not done!
We may get all what we could dream of in life! And this should be awesome till you know you are worth it and your comfort has not cost any other person pain! We may say what happens to others is none of our business! We may call somelse stupid for not being like you when you are at the top, but jus remember every dog has his day! Today if you are strong you could help sum1, tomorrow if you need help, I promise god shall do justice! Remember finally we gotta leave! That there will be an end!
Papa says ‘all of us are good, its only that sometimes our interests clash!’ I ask you can’t we still stay in our limits? Problems come to all….but the way we handle it makes a difference! How can we let ourselves turn into demons from humans at such times? Did God make us homo-sapiens or the wise man so that we become the most dangerous species alive on earth? So that we roam like blood thirsty animals to show how we can hate, how revenge is what we want! How we can prove we are no less!
Did you ever think… why has the world changed so much today..that we need classes for things like moral values? Why make the stress so huge that you need psychiatrists or rehabilitation centers? What is the sense? We are so weird…instead of changing ourselves, instead of thinking we wait for heros to get a change! Why? Arre kyuki mere akele se kya hoga? Koshish toh karo… bappu bole the ‘be the change you want to see!’
I know survival of the fittest is the law of the nature and this is exactly what I want to remind you my friends! Fitteset is the one who has a healthy mind, body and soul….try killing your soul and surviving and you will know what I m trying to put thru!

Mountains fall and seas divide before the one who in his stride…takes a hard road day by day, Sweeping obstacles away! Believe in yourself and in your play! Say not I cannot but I can. The prizes of life we fail to win because we doubt the power within!

GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE! THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG IN BEING GOOD! JUST GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE!
TAKE CARE! J